Thursday, April 23, 2009

Life is changing

Just looking back at the last few months...

HW: 226
SW: 212
CW: 175
GW: 150

175! I don't even know how I'm still doing this. Since New Year's of 2008, I've lost a whopping 51 lbs! And since New Year's of 2009, I've lost 37 lbs. I started out at a 16-18, and now I'm a 12-14 (it depends on the store).

Losing weight does a lot in your life. One interesting thing it has done is that I'm just a lot more confident than I was. I mean, I haven't met Mr. Right yet, but I'm actually dating. Yeah, me. I used to stay away from guys who were interested in me because I believed that, since I was fat, they could only have some sort of alterior motive. I dunno.

Anyway, things are changing. And I really need to go shopping, because I'm running out of things to wear!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Another mini-milestone... a milepebble, perhaps?

Hello again! I've noticed that I only post here when I'm in a good mood and have done a pretty good job with the weight loss. Oh well, the more posts the better, I guess.

Anyway, here are the usual stats:

HW: 226
SW: 212
CW: 182
GW: 150

Yep, that's 30 lbs since I started! Nice. It just feels good to be able to tell people that I've lost 30 lbs since 1/2/09. For some reason, 30 sounds like a much bigger number than 29. Go figure.

So, I'm developing a nice relationship with Crystal Light. I've been drinking a decent amount of water, but lately I've been trying to drink more since I seem to be PMSing for a longer time these past few months (which means more bloating, hooray!). Anyway, Crystal Light makes it easier to do that, and they have a raspberry grean tea flavor. Green tea is supposed to be good for you and all that. It hardly has any sodium, only 5 to 10 calories, and tastes pretty good. So that makes it a little easier for me to get in more water.

Ugh, I started weight training, and my arms hurt. I figured it's about time to tone up so I don't get "skinny fat"... you know, when you're thin but still flabby because you aren't toned at all. I don't want to still look flabby after all my hard work.

Change of subject... this weekend I'm going to my parents' house for Easter. My aunt from Louisiana is going to be there, whom I haven't seen since Christmas. Basically, I've lost 30 lbs since I last saw her. I'm looking forward to seeing what her reaction will be. I gotta say, I love the compliments; that's one of my favorite parts about losing weight. It might sound a little conceited to say I love being complimented all the time, but I can't deny that it motivates me.

What's also motivating me right now is my music fraternity's formal dance a week from Saturday. My friend is letting me borrow her dress, and it's a size 12 (a big 12, mind you). I can fit into it, but it's still pretty tight (or was a week ago). I'm going to try it on again tomorrow and see how it fits. I really need it to fit comfortably by April 18th! Or else I won't have anything to wear, which obviously isn't an option.

That's about all that's going on in my life in the weight loss department. Catch y'all later.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Back to freshman weight

HW: 226
SW: 212
CW: 185
GW: 150

I stepped on the scale this morning to find that I've finally reached the weight I was when I started college. Y'all, I didn't gain the freshman 15... I gained the freshman 40! So that felt good. I've lost 27 lbs since I started Weight Watchers... wow. I've never lost more than 25 lbs in my life, so it feels weird to pass the 25 lb mark. I'm almost at 30 lbs lost!

I've been getting more compliments lately, and clothes are still fitting better.

Oh, and let me tell you something weird. I had been stuck at 187 since my last post, and the scale just wasn't budging. Then at a party last weekend I just decided to forget about my diet for a day and see what happens. I had a hunch that if I did something different and just ate whatever I felt like eating for a day, maybe that would mix it up and the scale would start moving again.

Turns out, I was right. I stepped on the scale this morning to find that I had lost 2 lbs! Maybe it was coincidence, but all I know is that I was happy to see the scale finally move and to see that I was officially back to where I was when started college... that's a landmark for me because that's when I REALLY started to gain some serious weight.

I just have 2 more lbs to lose before I am no longer officially "overweight" for my height. Of course, I still want to get to the lower end of the bracket; despite the fact that I've been lying to myself and saying I'm "big boned," I actually have a small frame for a tall person. If I'm at a healthy weight, I'm actually pretty willowy... tall and slim. I can't wait for those days to come back...

Now, back to guzzling water....

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Finally broke that plateau!

Here I am again, after a few weeks of craziness! As soon as I said I had broken that plateau before, I hit another one! I bounced between 190 and 192 for a good two weeks, but this morning, the scale said 187!

HW: 226
SW: 212
CW: 187
GW: 150

I was totally not expecting today to be the day the scale finally moved. Right now, I'm at my parents' house for a few days (to visit). I think what did it is that I just eat differently when I'm here. Not necessarily better or worse, just different. Here, I eat more oils rather than sodium, because my dad cooks a lot and frequently uses oil. He also makes more meat and vegetables, whereas at my apartment I eat more starches and pre-packaged food (because I eat a lot of meals on campus). Of course, at both places I try to stay on plan. I think my change of pace I got here has helped me. Maybe I just needed something different.

It was so frustrating to go through that plateau, though. Every morning was a disappointment. When I felt down in the dumps, I tried to think about how far I've come. I think about how heavy a 20-lb bag of dogfood feels, and remember that that's the weight that's come off my body (not to mention the pressure that's been taken off my joints!).

Also, some good things happened, even if I was stuck for a while. My body is getting stronger and more toned. It's by no means perfect, but my body looks, feels, and performs better than it used to. I have a waist now! Weird. Also, today when I was at the gym, I decided to try out the treadmill. I walked for 2 minutes to warm up, and then decided to jog at 5 mph. I moved up to 5.5, then to 6 mph. I ran for a total of 8 minutes without stopping or collapsing (hah). I didn't jiggle as much, and my knees didn't hurt like they used to. 8 minutes may not sound like a lot to a marathon runner, but it's a lot for me.

A few things I've learned since my last post: plateaus only last forever if you forget about your past efforts and lose sight of your goal. Drinking sabotages weight loss!! (That contributed somewhat to my plateau. I'm cutting back for sure.) Sipping on water constantly throughout the day does wonders. Change up your exercise routine, otherwise your body gets bored. Keep your muscles guessing, and you'll see better results. And most of all, never lose faith in yourself! I hope I never do.

Friday, February 27, 2009

10% of my body... gone.

I know it's been a while since my last post, but I've been super busy with school. Anyway, here are my stats, as usual:

HW: 226
SW: 212
CW: 190!!
GW: 150

I'm at 190 now :) Only 40 more lbs til I reach my goal of 150. I hit a plateau for about a week, but I think it was because it was "that time of the month" (I know, overshare) and it was Mardi Gras. I'm back on track now, though, and it feels good.

The only bad thing is that I'm losing clothes. I've had to retire 3 pairs of jeans (I really liked them!) and a few shirts. But on the other hand, i'm getting some new clothes that fit me now, when they didn't before, so that's cool. Also, I was walking out of the gym yesterday and ran into a friend, and the first thing she said after saying Hey was You're looking so good! And when I went to visit my parents I got a compliment, too. At first I was wearing a jacket, but when I took it off and had a fitted Tshirt on my dad was like "Wow you really have lost weight... how much?" I told him About 20-25 lbs, and he was shocked.

So, that was a lot of bragging, I know. But I have gotten some useful information. The biggest thing I've learned so far is that you have to be in the right mindset before you can successfully do this (lost weight). You have to be healthy on the inside before you can work on the outside. It's like, before you go and get a new paint job on your car, you should probably fix the engine first, because that's more important.

Good luck to all who are reading this and going through the same thing, and I'll try to update soon. Hopefully I'll be in the 180s soon! I'm so damn close!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

I broke 200!

Today when I went shopping at Walmart, I finally bought a digital scale like I've been meaning to. I set it up tonight and I just couldn't resist trying it out. I know it's bad to weigh at night and such, but I was just so damn curious! So, I stepped on the scale, to find that it said 198.4! Under 200!!! My jaw dropped and I was like WOOOOOHOOO! My roommate thought I was nuts, but then she high-fived me when I told her about it.

Highest Weight (HW): 226
Starting Weight (SW): 212
Current Weight (CW): 198.4
Goal Weight (GW): 150

The only bad thing is that sometimes success scares me. It means that if I fail, it'll feel even worse because I know what good things I'm capable of. It's just so weird to see my weight start with a 1 instead of a 2. Now watch... I'll wake up tomorrow morning and it'll be back up to 201... I'll be so pissed. But whatever!

I also "went shopping in my closet" as I told my mom. I went through and found the things that I used to say "I'm too fat to wear that." Some stuff fit again (some stuff didn't, but what can you do). I feel like I got new clothes, but really I just got old ones back. I'm definitely not a size 8 yet, but I'm somewhere between a 14 and a 16, depending on what store we're talking about. And 16s used to be tight!

My only hope is that I can continue my success. 48.4 more pounds to go! Haha...

Monday, January 26, 2009

The Beginnings of Progress


I'm just beginning to see some progress in my weight loss. I put on a fitted T-shirt today that I haven't worn by itself in a while (I've been putting jackets or hoodies over it), and it looks better than it did last time I wore it. I used to have to put a cami on under it to smoothe things out and then I'd have to suck in, but today it looked decent! Also, one particular pair of jeans is fitting looser, but I can't tell if that's because I'm losing weight or if it's just because today was the 2nd time I've worn them. Who knows? I think I'm just going to think positive and say it's the weight loss ;)

One reason I've done well this week is because I had my wisdom teeth cut out this past Friday. My face still hurts a little bit today (Monday), and I still don't feel compltely comfortable eating solid food. I tried eating some macaroni for dinner, but it didn't go well. I'm paranoid that some food's going to get stuck back there in the hole or that I'm going to get dry socket. Also, it just hurt. My teeth and jaw are sore, like I said.

Anyway, so basically all I've been eating lately is liquid and soft food like pudding, yogurt, applesauce, etc. Since there's only so much of that kind of stuff you can eat, I've been getting a little bored with eating lately. And that's a good thing! Because most days I haven't even been able to hit my Points target for the day (which is 26). I've been seeing the effects on the scale.

My current statistics:

HW: 226
SW: 212
CW: 201.5
GW: 150

I'm so so so so close to breaking 200! That's what I've really looking forward to. My mini-goal is to get to under 200 lbs by Valentine's Day, and I'm starting to think I might be able to do it. Yay! I haven't weighed what I weigh now in almost 2 years!

[Sigh]... I just hope I can keep on doing this. I've done so well so far... especially with the wisdom teeth diet... haha. I forgot to say that I'm going to have to go on a liquid diet again this summer... I'm having corrective jaw surgery in June, and I'm going to have to go on a liquid dieti for 6 to 8 weeks. I was like daaaaamnnn! That's gonna suck so bad. BUT, I'll probably lose weight, so that's always a plus. Yeahhhh buddy.

So. Here's to loose pants and cut-out wisdom teeth. Hurrah!